Scratch that, I won't have a heavy intensive summer course load. It's been reduced, but because life's a b!*ch, it doesn't matter anyway. I won't be able to rest assured until I know for certain anyway between now and into next year.

Life bites....

Summer will still suck. <___<

Nothing good comes to honest people. You just get your head ripped off and stabbed from behind. You can be the best drawer, smartest student, funniest, meanest, or somebody with some neat talent, etc,...whatever, IN THE ENTIRE FREAKING WORLD....but with no courage or socialism, it's like it doesn't even matter at all.

You'd like a comparison on DA, for example? I'm sure you found a really good artist before, and yet by looks, practically nobody has said more than 10% compared to the number of they have, if they were fortunate enough.

_{(I'm not talking solely about DA. This is the sorry a$$ story of life.)}

Nobody sees you. Nobody gives you a da#n chance. Why bother trying at all.

_{(....I need a job.)}

Why bother applying to so many places, when nobody calls you anyway? I need to learn how to freaking lie. Everybody does. Nothing good comes to honest to good people. All they get is freaking trouble. They get the short end of the stick.

Why bother joining contest, when it goes by unrecognized? Chances of "winning" is similar to playing the lottery. The only reason why that exist is because everybody pours money in so that ONE or some people win it, while you don't get anything. So long as there's a chance to believe, is that it? And ah yeah and even if I tried commissions, you people would rather spend your money at the next burger joint, on games, with your friends, or for other good rational reasons. Why pay artists if you find artworks like sand on the beach?

...

I thought so. If not, then excuse me then for accusing. Don't mind me then.
I DO NOT NEED SOMEBODY TO TALK TO (thx if you intended to), I just needed to vent my thoughts. XP


05/14/2009
Koji will be shackled to deal with an intensive course load for the summer term...

In short,

you'll see me even less often than before now. Here's to the one heck of a miserable summer followed by the grim fall semester of '09.


...yay.

_{(I'm still sick...what do I have, man?! Chronic headache and nose goo?!)}

There isn't much hope left on DA to me either.



"Brotherly Love" & "Alone at Home" Fanart



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(Last updated on May'09. I'll update once I get a subscription again, otherwise it will butcher all the thumbnails X.x)