May 22:

As said before, my time on DA right now is pretty on and off. I can't even sit down for 5 mins, before another phone call comes in. >_<

I'll be rebuilding my gallery every now and then, so some stuff will be back and whatnot. Staring at just the 6 pics is a bit sad. -.-;

Now for the other things I need to address...

Brotherly Love
For now it will go into hiatus. I still feel a bit awkward about it, but I do intend to keep going, because well to sum it all up, not just because many of you want me to, but I do as well. ....'less of course you all went ahead and read the rest of the story...>.>;;; (my fault then) Time will tell.


Alone at Home
Okay, for this weird comic, it is looking up actually. Obviously still feeling weird and junk, but I worked hard (and had fun actually) on page 8 with whatever minimal time I've hand in the last 5+ days. So this will be updated before BL. :3

I still need to go through my msg bin. O___O I apologize for not getting back at you all, just give me time and I hope you understand.

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May 21:

Actually, DA is more on hold right now, because I happen to have (now?!) other things to take care of outside the net, -_____- and close to every day, it's keeping me away from my own things (might not be a bad idea, heh), but anyway, because of this, it will be even longer before I may get back and decide what to do about my depressed artist funk......I just don't know yet, just so you all know.

I haven't gotten the time to sit down properly to read your messages, but let it be known that I thank you all for your kind comments and support. I appreciate it very much.

Until then, ciao.

~Koji

....first it's school....now it's life... >.>;;

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May 17:

Brotherly Love
If you didn't know by now, I ONLY illustrate the fanfic. It was written by my dear friend . The story is hers and hers alone and for those who have read the original fanfic, I was planning to add an epilogue to her final, but....

Robin's a good and humble friend. It's amazing. I've talked to her, because I was worried about how she felt with me illustrating her fanfic. She told me it doesn't bother her and is even happy that her story is known, but still...it doesn't feel right. She doesn't want me to stop either, but the reason why I might discontinue BL is because I feel like I'm taking over what she started. I feel like I'm taking all the credit, when the only thing I do is draw her story.

Sure I will add my own ideas at the end (if I ever even get that far), but there's nothing that came from me alone...I just draw. I'm just some fan who was so moved by her fanfic back then, that I decided to draw the first 6 pages of BL...

And even when I do come up with ideas....look at my other comic.


Alone at Home
While I received the support and ideas from you guys, everything is written and drawn by myself. But even so, my ideas are...convulsing. I know some of you have been waiting for page 8. While I was writing the script today, I just stopped typing and thought, "what is this #&($#?! This is some retarded gay sap."

Recently, I make Mr. L seem like a sex beast or something. Poking dirty jokes here and there with Luigi and Daisy. At first it was fun, but I dunno, I twitch at the sight of what I have done and yet I don't regret it. I like doing this, but it just doesn't seem right.

I deviate too far from what Nintendo does. I get reminded of this whenever I see others do something of the sort and then I see myself doing the just same...

The problem isn't the pressure of drawing itself (Heck, I enjoy drawing and I wouldn't stop for anything in the world.)

The problem is the SUBJECT.

ALWAYS. Why must I always make Luigi and Mario appear so different from what they are? Why must I draw them as something they aren't? Seeing them angsty, dark, being involved with dirty jokes (and while it was all in good fun) when in reality, they really are comical and funny? I can't help it. I just do it. I like it. It's fanart, but it bothers me to no end that it makes absolutely no sense at all. It's a love-hate complex and it bites being in one. -__-;

In other words....I'm making a shit (sorry...) lotta fuss out of myself. >.>;

I lack ideas. I lack creativity. I lack normalcy. I lack the notion to actually do something within the range of what the characters are supposed to be, and I lack the maturity of being an artist, because I draw what I want/enjoy to draw. I just don't understand why I can't accept it.

What I meant in the last journal wasn't just the comics, but what I draw as well. I tore my gallery down to shreds. It's still there obviously, but no comments or (can't avoid BL though since I promised it'd be up...) for a few days should make me grow up and act more like a person rather than some whiny ass brat. This is how I punish myself.

Peh, give a few days and I'll be back to normal...I'm being stupid.